this was my wake-up call
Christine on YouTube.
"I wrote a letter to her / There was so much to say / I waited for my moment / I got my moment but blew it anyway"
"[B]eing loved makes me feel directly the gap between what I am as a determinate being and the unfathomable X in me which causes love. Lacan's definition of love ('Love is giving something one doesn't have...') has to be supplemented with: '... to someone who doesn't want it.'" (Slavoj Žižek)